Summertime and the Living's Easy

Camping was fun!

We went to Burrlingame in Charlestown, RI. A place I've spend MANY weekends drinking illegally around a camp fire. I actually enjoyed the veggie dogs I brought (though they definitely didn't taste like hot dogs) and resisted bacon cheeseburgers and bacon pizza! I did however have a giant pixie stick (talk about a sugar rush) and a Looney Toons push up ice cream thing (2012's version of the Flintstones push up ice cream. Remember those?! My favorite as a kid!) But everyone knows being the woods make you burn more calories, right?

The first day we just hung around and set up camp. It was too hot to do much else. I gave Lillie a pig's ear and she decided to bury it in the leaves with her nose. Too cute.

Saturday involved Allison and I ambushing the boys with water guns filled with ice cold cooler water (they didn't care as much as we had hoped),

Packin' heat!

 tie dyeing clothing (and my hands. And legs. And feet... Oops.),

Everyone's shirts

My shirt!

My hand

kayaking, and an awesome game involving throwing two balls on a string at a stand with three horizontal poles at different heights. (I can't remember the name to save my life. Something with the word golf in it? But it was really fun!) When we went kayaking we went down this cool little river hidden in the back of the Watchaug Pond behind a bunch of tall grass. It was narrow and winding. We were surrounded by various types of vegetation towering over our heads and beautiful water lilies in full bloom. It was awesome!

When we got back to land I decided to see if Lillie would go into the water. She's been to the beach with me before but had never shown much interest. So I walked her into the water with me and she went for it! As soon as she couldn't reach the ground anymore her doggy instincts kicked right in and she started to swim! (I was such a proud mommy!) Then she immediately turned around with her eyes bugging out of her head and a look of pure terror on her face. It was the funniest thing I have ever seen! I really wish I had a camera! That sounds mean but she was happy as a clam (where does that expression come from?) once she could touch the ground again. Anyone would be terrified their first time swimming! Between that and two walks that day she was one tired pup by the end of the day!

Lillie's passed the F out!

It was great to get away and clear my mind and I'm so glad Lillie was so well behaved and really seemed to love it. Of course as soon as I came home my head almost immediately became clouded with the same crazy negative thoughts and feelings I'd been hoping a few days away would rid me of. If only it were that easy. I don't like what I have become lately. Insecure, needy, negative and lonely. I hate that I let one person determine my own sense of self worth. I thought I was past that. I carry on as I always do, living my life, but my mind hasn't been a healthy place. I think some time in seclusion is needed.

Anyway! Lillie and I both cruised home in desperate need of a bath and shower with the windows down and the radio up. It was a beautiful weekend to be outside!

I may not look happy but I was just trying not to crash. Hah