Friday's are my official weigh in day. I gained 3lbs since last week. But I'm fine with that since earlier this week I had gained 9lbs. That bring me to a total of 43lbs lost since January.
Last night before going to bed I had all intentions of being very productive today and wrote a decent sized "to do" list on my white board. I woke up feeling like I got hit my a truck. My head hurt, my shoulders hurt, I was cranky and I had no coffee. Not good. I went out to grab a coffee from Dunkin' and somehow ended up in Old Navy looking for a dress to wear to a baby shower. That's where the productivity train slammed into a fuel truck which had stalled on the tracks and erupted into a ball of flames (no casualties reported).
I hadn't shopped at Old Navy for quite some time, and last time I was there I wore the largest size they carried, and sometimes even that was too tight. So I started looking at some dresses, looking for the same size I'd always worn (except when I lost 75lbs like 4 years ago. Yea I'm that much of a yo-yo dieter) and none of the styles I liked were in my size. So I go back to doing what I've always had to do. Shopping based on size instead of style. ANY dress or skirt I saw I would first check to see if they had my size, and if they did then I would check it out and see if I liked it or not.
If any of you out there have had to do this yourself, you know how much it blows. It's difficult, if not impossible to develop your own style when you have to shop this way. My whole life there have been maybe 5 stores in the mall that carried my size. Two of them carried clothes I would actually want to wear. One of them was exclusively plus size clothing and the other, Old Navy, would offer maybe 20% of their clothes in my size, and even then it wasn't offered in all the different colors. Shopping by size was really the only option, because if you shopped based on what you liked, it would most likely be a constant string of disappointments.
Using my "shop by size" strategy I got increasingly discouraged as I was only able to find a couple things that I'd wear. I didn't LOVE them, one dress I didn't even LIKE, but they were the right size. Or so I thought... I can't describe how excited I got when I tried on those few items and they were too big! This meant the selection of clothes I had to chose from went from a few, to almost the entire store!! I ended up trying on much more then just dresses and was pretty amazed how much better I looked in clothes that fit me, instead of the over sized long sleeved shirt I had come in. I also made an effort to get some color in my wardrobe as the majority of it is black, blue and red. It was a surprising success.
Here's a pic of me that night sporting some of my new threads. Hooray for color!
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I probably had much more to say about that, but I don't remember now. But I do know that come Saturday, the day of the baby shower, it ended up being 40 degrees out and I didn't even get to wear my new outfit! Damn it!
I haven't been doing very well with dieting and exercising. After my awful second C25K workout I haven't tried again. And while I start every day with the intention of eating well, this weekend was a bust. Lots of beer on Friday, a yummy breakfast with bacon, homefries and cake at the baby shower Saturday, then pizza for dinner, and I don't remember Sunday but it probably wasn't good either. I have stayed on track the last 2 days but I need to get my butt back out there and exercise! I felt so good! And the feeling I got trying on new clothes is better then any food tastes, but...I dont know. I just haven't been able to listen to my own reason.
Today however, is a new day. I already worked 6-2 this morning and now I'm on a break until going back in 4-9. I had planned everything I was going to eat today before I left the house this morning. And minus a couple beef tips at work I've stuck to it. So, here's to a good night, and a better tomorrow.
PS I've missed you so much blog! Don't leave me again!
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