People keep complimenting me, and it's great but I can't help but think of all the things I've been doing wrong any time someone says something positive. Like, "Oh Stacy you look great!" and I think "Yea right. I've gained 5lbs and eat like shit." That's not healthy. One of my coworkers didn't recognize me from behind the other day and almost asked who the new girl was. Now that's a pretty awesome compliment! But still all I thought about were the things I was doing wrong.
I felt so much better when I was eating healthy and exercising! I know this and tell myself this but....sigh...
My social life has been kind of wacky. Full of awesomeness and terrible things at the same time. I'm reconnecting with old friends, discovering new friends, and seeing ugly sides of people I wish I never saw. I seem to want to fall into old habits as I reconnect with old friends, and seeing the dark side of someone you trusted is always emotional. And what do I do when I'm emotional? That's right children, I eat! I'm a textbook case of an emotional eater.
The good news is I'm super motivated to whip my yard into shape. (at least I'm motivated to do something, right?) I feel like I've been talking about it forever but the weather hasn't been cooperating with me when I have had free time. But I have the next 2 days off and I am dedicating them both to my yard!! I bought myself a potted plant. I'm determined not to kill it as I have had a black thumb in the past. I feel like my "want-to-do" list is endless. I need to focus on one job at a time or I'll have 10 projects started and none finished.
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If it makes you feel better, I've definitely gained 5 pounds in a week and probably gained 5 pounds in like a day. (Well, maybe.) 5 pounds isn't much and it can come right off again in a heartbeat! :)
ReplyDeleteThanks, I know. It's just that I've been watching the scale creep up slowly and haven't been doing enough to stop it.
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